All By Myself

Mood: unsettled

Every time I hear that song, I think of Clueless and how they play it as she realizes she's "butt crazy" in love with Josh...and the movie ends soon after, happily.  However...

It's official.  The big news is about to be shared:  Caitlyn is leaving Iowa.  My partner in crime...though usually she makes me behave more than Mommy would...my confidant, my friend, my snuggle during scary movies partner.  My make it through this mess of living single in your 20s friend.  Is going.

My shopping partner, my bulletin board helper, my sister...is leaving.

And while I know it is best for her, and most likely me...I am terrified of what life looks like being 23 hours away from my family.  Talk about living alone.  

And so, my nice thing for today...and every day until we leave for Christmas (on Christmas...we go together...I leave home alone....) will be to enjoy what time we have left.  And remind myself that I AM CAPABLE...and I CAN be by  myself.  And that just like Clueless if I sincerely believe it and make it happen...I'm destined for my own happy ending.